just a feeling...

Yesterday done my thesis presentation, quite successful and felt the satisfaction also, because i put in tons of efforts for it, do researches, practice practice and practices, in sum i got what i want la...
so, HAPPY...

feel so many things to say, happened too many stuffs in these days... thesis, presentation, group project, assignments, studies, friends, boy girl relationship, blah blah blah... get through it dy, done it dy, lost something yet gain something in return, experienced many things that i thought it wont happened, not only bad things but also good things, listened to friends chit chating, heard stuffs, stories, met with friends, play around with each others, went different places, wow... my head are full of stuff... confuse...??

these 2 weeks i experienced the most... coz stress, coz miscommunication, coz believe, coz trust, coz putting efforts in it, i felt stress... i felt betrayed... i felt guilty... i felt low self esteem... i felt i dont know who to trust... i felt I LOST SOMETHING...

having a chat with my sister who came to KL, learnt new stuffs, learnt how to listen, learnt how to guide, learnt how to make ppl think, learnt how to explain, learnt how difficult others felt, learnt how other ppl think of me, learnt how complicated in this living world, learnt how to think of myself, learnt what's another face under face that u see, learnt how to talk, learnt how another ppl can backstab me, learnt how other ppl can use words to kill one's self esteem and use that as steps to increase own self esteem and trust their own capacity, even he dont even know who the hell u r, learnt real life example of 忙，茫，盲，亡(busy--> confuse--> blind--> die)... learnt learnt LEARNT...

herm, such a life...